homesick

does anybody read this?

it might be best if i don't know. i need a place to express myself tonight. i am homesick. my husband is homesick. we are tired and lonely.

i love adventure. and i love meeting new people. and i love living in different places. but it's hard right now. i used to have coworkers and i couldn't believe how refreshing it was to visit with them a couple of months ago. now, most of my days are spent in the company of a two year old, whom, i love dearly, but doesn't exactly stimulate the mind.

we bought a house that was a great investment. one that we knew we could sell and not lose money on if we had to sell quickly. i am having trouble making it a home. i don't know if it's because in my mind, we will just be packing up again in a few months, or if i'm just being lazy.

i'm tired, physically - i have been for a year. emotionally - i have cried nearly all day.

i miss my friends and family... but it feels as if they don't miss us.

we would get on a plane tomorrow for a visit. or even plan a road trip. but we don't have the extra money.

my husband's job, the one that brought us here and is keeping us here for now, is always in limbo, and for now, they are slow. so he is miserable.

usually, if one of us is in a funk, the other is not. but not today. we're both there. and it sucks.

i hope when i wake up tomorrow, i will feel better.